Don’t Need a Hand to Hold

Friday, January 22, 2016

I’ve always been terrified of being alone. It scares me to the bone. Honestly, I’ve never been out on my own, always sheltered, always had men around me, friends. It’s time to stop and realize that being alone is part of life. It’s not bad or good. It just is.

I’m reminded of DVF’s famous quote,


It’s true. You’re always with yourself. When you learn to love, respect, and understand yourself life does get easier. And by no means am I saying I have it figured out, I’ve just seen that in the last month I’ve caught myself just being happy. Feeling content.

I guess this period post graduation has been so weird. It’ like I have all this free time that almost feels “wrong” and half of me doesn’t know what I want to do with my life, I have no idea where I’m headed or even if the decisions I’m making now are the right ones.

I don’t even know the point of this post is, but I just want to stop being afraid and just let go. Embrace new adventures, stop being afraid of change and being alone. Being alone makes us strong. It forces us to deal with our demons and insecurities and face them. Facing them only makes us stronger.

Once you can control your fears and realize that they are only holding you back – is when you progress.

Don’t be afraid of being alone. I always thought I had to be in a relationship to be happy and because I liked the comfort. It’s a lie. Happiness starts within you and another person should not be your source of happiness. YOU control your happiness.

I love listening to Me, Myself, and I by G- Eazy. The chorus just gets me.

Oh, it’s just me, myself and I
Solo ride until I die
Cause I, got me for life
I don’t need a hand to hold
Even when the night is cold
I got that fire in my soul

I don’t need anything to get me through the night
Except the beat that’s in my heart
And it’s keeping me alive
I don’t need anything to make me satisfied 
Cause the music fills me good and it gets me every time